I am just dust in the earthly air

Just take one deep breath
and all troubles shall disappear.

Peace

I'm already regretting this one... but its for the better.

I think 2008 will be a better year... at least the last few days of 07 are starting to come together.

Blast from the Past

Volatility seems to be the highlight of my life at the moment. Perhaps it has always been there at the core of my time here.

This is going to be interesting. It seems I owe someone a lot of something. I'm sorry I've been such a horrible friend. I'm sorry I'm so twisted. I'm confused myself. One day it might all unravel itself... or perhaps I'll just drop everything. I am no ascetic though, so the former will have to prevail. Hopefully sooner than later.

You reap what you sow

learning lessons the hard way...

Pain

heh... its certainly been awhile since I've felt this kind of loneliness...

Don't Shoot Me Santa

Oh Santa
I’ve been waiting on you
That’s funny kid
Because I’ve been coming for you
Oh Santa
I’ve been killing just for fun
Well the party’s over kid
Because I
Because I got a bullet in my gun
A bullet in your what?

Santa’s got a bullet in his gun
You know it, Santa’s got a bullet in his gun

Don’t shoot me Santa Claus
I’ve been a clean living boy
I promise you
Did every little thing you asked me to
I can’t believe the things I’m going through

Don’t shoot me Santa Claus
Well no one else around believes me
But the children on the block they tease me
I couldn’t let them off that easy

Oh Santa
It’s been a real hard year
There just ain’t no gettin’ around this
Life is hard
But look at me
I turned out alright
Hey Santa
Why don’t we talk about it?
Work it out
Believe me

This ain’t what I wanted
I love all you kids, you know that
Hell, I remember when you were just 10 years old
Playing out there in the desert
Just waiting for a sip of that sweet Mojave rain
In the sweet Mojave rain
The boy was on his own

Don’t shoot me Santa Claus
I’ve been a clean living boy
I promise you
Did every little thing you asked me to
I can’t believe the things I’m going through

Hey Santa Claus
Well no one else around believes me
But the children on the block they tease me
I couldn’t let them off that easy

They had it coming
So why can’t you see?
I couldn’t turn my cheek no longer
The sun is going down and Christmas is near
Just look the other way and I’ll disappear forever

Woo!

Don’t shoot me Santa Claus
Well no one else around believes me
But the children on the street they tease me
I couldn’t let them off that easy

Believe me
Santa
Santa

~The Killers~

Found this song on the radio... and its funny and sad that I can relate to it in so many different ways.

wha....

you really are relentless... i really don't know what to do with this last twist you gave me...

but its a weak spot i'll need to work on sooner or later... later would have been nice but time is a pretty big concern now ain't it...