Complications

heh... where should I start?

I've been in Sendai for a little over a month now and while I've more or less settled in I still feel like I don't quite fit in from time to time. Its a relatively common feeling for me, especially when I'm feeling hungry... but really,I'm not sure why it happens, but it does and it sucks... This most recent bout mostly had to do with not knowing what the heck I should be doing for the 6.5 units and some 20 or so weekly hours that accounts for my research, but after talking to my PI, things have settled down a bit. Apparently I've been placed into a project, the head of which is currently hiring postdocs in China...

My lack of posting these past 11 days has had more to do with constantly trying to adjust to my surrounding, and strengthening my resolve to improve. Things got a little hairy though when I spilled tea on my laptop and subsequently rendered it unusable... and irreparable while in Japan. In otherwords, I'll be without a computer at home in the long term for the first time in about 17 years. For some people, this might not be such a big deal, but it'll be interesting for a guy who usually spent the vast majority of his free time in front of his screen in the past. I have confidence that the experience will improve my life somehow as I have on many an occasion felt the need to throw my computer out the window but not having the courage to do so. The transition to a life where the hikkikomori lifestyle has been rendered virtually impossible (in a way, I was a weekend hikkikomori) hasn't been that easy so far. The general grumpiness associated with feeling too exposed to the world has more or less hit full force about now, except this time I don't have the ability or the social backstrength to withdraw into seclusion, with either my computer or a friend or two to keep me company. The outcome should be rather interesting...

There have been other complications, but I'll go ahead and call it a night for now, else I start sounding too whiny...

PS. your best bet to contact me now... email. if you want to feel like you're are able to talk to me anytime, please ask for the email associated with my cell.