heh... what a serious sounding title, but really i don't know what to call this because I just felt like jotting down some of today's thoughts because i need to share (I've spent way too much time by myself and in the lab the last few days)
Last night I one of the scariest and most comical nightmares ever... I got shot at by communists while I was driving in Mission bay. I also got the angry why the hell did you sleep right after you ate a big greasy meal twice in the last 36 hours too. I think sleeping right after eating gives me nightmares and makes me wake up feeling bloated... so for you kiddies that like doing that, I'd suggest you stop before it become a habit because when you get old like me... it won't be pretty.
Some additional thoughts. I have this pipe dream of getting a job doing real research in Japan... I don't know why I stick by it or why I even share such an unlikely dream with the people I come across, but I do... It probably makes me seem really ungrounded which can be dangerous for an engineer.
I'm not sure what the future has in store for me anymore. I feel really outclassed by my peers even in the realm of research... I'm not really sure how I'm going to succeed and its scary, but we'll see, really the only thing I can do (I think) is stride forward with my eyes open and take in as much as I can. I might get lucky.
meh... had a long talk with mitch about taiko... but that can be saved for later or a more direct interaction with the group... I just got busy reading abstracts for this upcoming convention I want to go to... later.
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